3v3 partie deux


“It’s hard to lead a cavalry charge if you think you look funny on a horse.” – Adlai E. Stevenson II

Healer trauma. It’s real. ʿʿ⁽⁽((⁰ⅈ⁰))⁾⁾ʾʾ


: an injury (as a wound) to living tissue caused by an extrinsic agent

: a disordered psychic or behavioral state resulting from severe mental or emotional stress or physical injury

: an emotional upset <the personal trauma of an executive who is not living up to his own expectations — Karen W. Arenson>

I generally like honest feedback – hearing other players’ opinions on what I am doing correctly and incorrectly is amazing at helping me improve, especially since a lot of my guildies and the players I heal have much more pvp experience than I do. The problem is when the feedback is angry and borderline abusive.

Healing isn’t easy. I don’t know enough about other classes to make comments on the relative difficulty of healing, but I’m pretty sure any player who has played a healer class will agree that it’s definitely not as easy as some non-healers like to make it out to be. It’s true that our JD is pretty straightforward: keep people alive. But just because a mission statement is simple, doesn’t mean it’s easy to achieve. For one thing, we need to be aware of the relative positions of every single other player on the field at the same time. This isn’t too bad in 3v3, but in a 6v6 or 12v12 or rift scenario, trying to keep track of your party members as well as nearby enemies that can cc chain or kill you is a formula for a headache. We’re also under a lot of pressure to prioritize our party members – whether through healer error or other circumstances, it’s not always possible for the whole party to stay alive – healers need to make a lot of split second decisions on who to save and who to sacrifice. More importantly, we’re not perfect – unlike health pots, we’re not infallible and we do have off days.

I know that from a party member’s point of view, the situation is generally fairly simple. You’re a healer. Your one task is to heal. I’m not getting heals. Why aren’t you doing your job. It’s a very understandable thought process and I can definitely understand why you would feel angry. But, on the other hand, calling your healer names, or harshly criticizing their ability to play, while it may make you feel better at the moment, can cause the other player a lot of pain and stress. I’ve been on the receiving end of this type of criticism once or twice ● ﹏☉ and I’ve also heard rumors about certain players behaving in this manner. What I will end up doing is avoiding you at all costs. I will not pm you for instances, because I’m afraid of what you will say if I make a mistake and you die. I will not invite you to arena parties, because how you will react to any mistake I make will constantly be at the back of my mind, constantly distracting me from my gameplay and from enjoying the matches. I’ll probably even avoid talking to you as much as possible, because every interaction will be colored by reminders of what you said.

It’s hard to heal if you’re made to think you’re a crappy priest.

*As a side note, the converse is also true. There are players I will drop guild parties for in 12v12 (wargod event) – pretext being there is already another healer in the guild party –  if they need a priest because they have been consistently nice and appreciative every time I heal them (shout-out to Goat from Oblivion~ (ɔ˘з˘)ɔ )

srsbzns aside~ here is another 3v3 video!

Party Members:

Inorin – frost mage – Eminence

Axode – lycan edge/dark sin – Eminence

The 2nd song is a slight jab at the team we’re facing (TendouPain, Aooni, Mellonaria) – I’m afraid I don’t have too much respect for lowbie farmers (partly because a close friend really hates that lowbie team) – “The game I play, you can’t afford to compete in” is basically what the song is saying ┐(´-`)┌


3v3 partie un


“The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him.” ― G.K. Chesterton

Life became a lot busier suddenly for various reasons and I’ve also started farming/grinding a bit more in game, so I apologize for the lack of posts ヾ(❛ε❛“)ʃ

Quick updates:

I made a slight adjustment to my tree

tree part 1 tree part 2 tree part 3

-4 points from Source of Magic and +4 into Divine Light

I haven’t had many chances to use Divine Light in pvp yet, but I’m trying to learn to fit it into my buff rotation \( ゚ヮ゚)/

I’ve been quite busy reiding my gear and finishing up my crystalline IIIs (critical defense gems) and a bloodstone IV (health gem)

Here’s a snapshot of my current stats:


Nowhere close to where I should be, but I’m slowly getting there! Some old new members of Emi have been really motivating me to farm more gold with the long term focus of reaching my end game gear goals (。´ ‿`♡)

Finally, here’s a short video of 3v3 arena in Forsaken World. I’ll list out all of my embarrassing errors in a later post.

Party members:

Devilishly – elemental warrior – Eminence

Delocroix – glacial priest – Avatar

for last video:

Devilishly – elemental warrior – Eminence

VesperRain – frost mage – Eminence

critiques~ noob calling~ comments welcome!

Mlle. Puff


城市的夜晚就像是戴着墨镜,如果你看不到我的欲望,是不是就不会揭穿我的彷徨。 – 泡芙小姐

“The city’s night is like wearing a pair of shades, if you can’t see my desire, then you won’t notice my hesitation” – Miss Puff

I’ve always loved how Miss Puff seems to give words to the desires and hesitations of my modern generation. We want and possess so much – smartphones, careers, diplomas, designer bags and shoes and sunglasses – yet we’re still hesitating before the metropolis and the dream it embodies. We attain so easily that we often find ourselves asking if we ever truly desired them. When the world is handed to you on a silver plate, have you ever had the opportunity to prove to yourself that the world is what you really wanted? When all the world is in love with you, your potential, your youth, have you ever truly learned to love yourself or other people?

Miss Puff is like a modern Carrie Bradshaw (yes, Carrie Bradshaw is immortal, but she is also, unfortunately, past her prime). Like Sex and the City, she tells the story of a modern generation discovering the world and the meaning of love and desire at the heart of one of the world’s greatest cities. The difference? Miss Puff and her friends live in Beijing, China, the heart of what is now the world’s second largest economy. And while we are invited to share in Miss Puff’s relationships with two very different men, what Miss Puff and her friends learn about is what it means to love and desire beyond the confines of one relationship or love affair. It’s a very modern, post-90s generation love affair: the struggle to relate to a world that is growing increasingly detached, to hold on to friendships that are increasingly constrained by time, and to love yourself not by loving yourself, but by accepting and loving the world around you. Instead of trying to “make it” in the fast-beating pulse of the brave new world, Miss Puff is trying to not be dragged into the speeding vortex of the city and of modern life. It’s the coming-of-age of the modern generation: the struggle to be less egocentric in a world where you are told everything is about you, and the battle to walk at your own pace in a world where sometimes the hardest thing to do is to simply slow. down.

I recently found Season 4 on youku and will start watching today! I highly recommend this webseries to anyone who occasionally wonders: “Where did my time go?”

le guild parfait


“We just sort of took up by the river one day, we don’t belong to each other: he’s an independent, and so am I. I don’t want to own anything until I know I’ve found the place where me and things belong together. I’m not quite sure where that is just yet. But I know what it’s like.” She smiled, and let the cat drop to the floor. “It’s like Tiffany’s,” she said.” – Truman Capote, Breakfast at Tiffany’s

People are inherently social animals – we instinctively gravitate towards other people who share our interests, passions, and sense of humor. While social units IRL are generally more fluid and relatively varied, most MMORPG social units are structured around some form of the guild system. This is most certainly true for FW.

While it is possible to remain a free agent, and some players do so, being guildless makes it incredibly difficult to advance in FW as well as keeping a player from accessing a large portion of the end-game content. In order for players to obtain recipes and materials for higher job levels, they must be a member of a guild with a completed base since these items are not sold at public npcs. Being a member of a guild is also necessary in order to participate in Rift, FW’s guild warring and territory system. Furthermore, Rift is the only source of level 77 purple hands with golden text, making it extremely difficult for guildless players to obtain them.

Outside of the game mechanics that strongly encourage players to join a guild, the player-formed structure for most game content also makes being a member of a guild a quasi-necessity. Most players will inquire for instance parties in guild before opening the run to the general server through world chat. Epic boss hunts, especially the weekly Eternal Belief Lich Lords which drop the much-coveted 75 purple EB weapons, are generally organized as guild events. Consequently, a player’s choice of guild directly affects their enjoyment of the game as well as the nature of their gaming.

an example of an EB weapon


On Lionheart server, guilds can be roughly organized into 3 tiers: OP guilds, large non-OP guilds, and casual or small guilds. Alt guilds fall under a 4th tier of their own.

These tiers can be looked at in two different ways (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

(I) What a player can achieve through these guilds

(1) casual/small guilds

(a) make friends

(b) learn the game

(c) receive basic advice on builds etc.

(d) elite quality gears, lower rarity items

(e) instance parties

(2) large non-OP guilds

(a) friends~ but you are much less likely to know everyone in the guild or be as involved in everyday guild governance

(b) a complete base

(c) more in-depth advice and information on game play and game mechanics

(d) elite quality gears, occasionally purple gears

(e) instance parties – notably, more parties for 75+ instances

(f) boss hunts for the less competitive epic bosses (i.e. Lord of Moss)

(g) regular rifts

(3) OP guilds

(a) friends~ depending on how strong your character is and how active you are, you can either be extremely close with the core members or remain relatively unfamiliar with most guild members

(b) a complete base

(c) very comprehensive advice on game mechanics – sometimes even bordering on uninvited interference (*・)σσσ(*゜Д゜*)

(d) boss hunts – specifically for the most coveted epic bosses (Lich Lords, Vexxers, Twin Emperors, FlyingBosswhosenamenobodyeverremembers)

(e) weekly rifts with relatively high stakes

(f) purple quality gear including EB weapons and boots

(g) possible help with your arena score

(II) What a player will need to invest into the game

(1) casual/small guilds: minimal play time, very little grinding/cash shopping

(2) large non-OP guilds: a reasonable amount of play time (most of these guilds require some proof of life at least every other week), some grinding/cash shopping (however there is very little pressure from the guild itself for players to do so)

(3) OP guilds: a regular playing schedule involving game time during most major guild events, either a lot of grinding or a reasonable level of cash shopping in order to remain a contributing member to the guild

When deciding what type of guild to join, players need to consider where they are in their “game life” and how much commitment they are willing to undertake. More importantly, it is necessary for the player to be as interested in making the commitment that the less casual guilds require as they are in what they can attain as a member of those guilds. Players who tend to join OP guilds solely for the benefits usually have high-turnover rates and end up creating a negative experience both for themselves and for other players.

While guilds can be roughly placed in one of those 3 categories, it is important to remember that guilds are not static within those categories, just as players are not noobs forever. Furthermore, guilds in the same category can display a vast variance in guild culture and the type of players they attract. These differences are usually less obvious in the 2 more casual types of guilds, but become very defined in the OP guilds.

The current strongest guilds on Lionheart server are:

Eminence – my guild (*´▽`*).。.





Each of these 5 guilds have their own individual “personality quirks” which more often than not, brings them into conflict with each other (or more specifically in recent history, brings the other guilds into conflict with Emi).

Please bear in mind that there is going to be pretty heavy bias going forward since I am obviously very partial to my own guild (°∀ °)♡

Eminence and Starlight have always historically been Hydrus guilds and, as far as I know, have a relatively tolerant relationship with each other.

Starlight, based on popular opinion, is a very family-style guild, with a number of members who are in later stages of life (i.e. married, working, middle-aged). They’re considered relatively low-drama and relaxed as well as fairly casual for an OP guild. Quite a few members of my 2nd guild, Midnight, have gravitated to Starlight after guild-drama nearly killed Midnight in the aftermath of our guild lead quitting game. Most of these members are reasonably well-geared, but diffidently competitive, preferring to enjoy the social atmosphere of the game and the PvE content.

Doc & Fox, two of the sweetest people ever~

Avatar was historically an Aeroses guild, however it recently also switched to the Hydrus statue. Most Lionheart players know that at one point, Avatar was the most OP guild on the server – in many ways, the only OP guild on the server. According to former Avatar members who are now in Eminence, Avatar was almost militant in its rules and its point system for bidding on gear. However, due to a wave of drama involving quitting members and a ban war, Avatar lost its power and only recently started to rebuild. Due to various reasons, Eminence was largely blamed for Avatar’s downfall, resulting in a lot of enmity between the two guilds.

Dominant is a guild I privately call “the terrorist guild” when discussing them with guild mates. While most people think I started having such a negative view of them after joining Emi (because of how much Domi hates us), it’s actually a term I started using when I was still a corps lead at Midnight. At the time, Mjolnir, another Aeroses guild, was working with Dominant and other Ignet guilds in an alliance to contain Emi. Because I had an active alt in Mjolnir (actually Reina, who was only an alt at the time), I acted as a diplomat of sorts,  helping set up communications between our then guild lead, Ravara, and Genocciide, the Mjolnir rift lead. Although we were supposed to work together to focus on attacking Emi and Starlight, Dominant disregarded the alliance and led a number of Ignet guilds in attacking Midnight (we held quite a number of lvl3 territories, the lowest level of territory) for 3-4 weeks in a row. From our point of view, the attacks were largely unprovoked and initially unexpected, it was only after asking people who were close with then Dominant leader, Deibross, that I finally heard what amounted to a rationale for their behavior. Deibross supposedly said that he was attacking Midnight simply because we were weak and he believed that Domi was capable of taking all of our territories.

That type of “bully” mentality is essentially what I have come to expect from Domi and members of Domi. Instead of facing other guilds (even weaker ones like Midnight) head on, they prefer to use numbers, attacking only when they can ensure that a number of other guilds will be attacking the same guild that week. Pretty typical of Domi’s attitude is their ranting in world chat after Emi successfully defended a 60v60 against them last week. Emi entered the rift with less than 30 people while Domi had close to 60 members in the rift – although the rift was close, Emi still managed to win by a slight margin, our attacking teams making up for the lack of carters. Immediately afterwards, Domi members flooded world chat calling us various names and implying that some of our members were “selling themselves” by joining Emi after leaving their previous guilds (even though these same members had been close friends with most of Emi for most of their time in FW)

This is honestly one guild I struggle to find anything nice to say about – in fact, it’s pretty difficult for me to even think of more than one member I can consider a friend (ノ`Д ́)ノ

Freeza, you’re a top bloke, and pretty much the only exception to the rule

another old friend from Midnight~ only I feel much more ambivalent towards his new guild ┬─┬ ︵ /(.□. \)

Oblivion is also an Ignet guild. To a certain extent, Oblivion has undergone the largest transformation within the past few months: from a relatively relaxed cbf guild to what reminds me of the Avatar glory-days bedtime stories I get told by Shirona and Phil. The main thought that comes to my mind with Oblivion is “rules.” Oblivion has a lot of them – from how purple quality gear is distributed and bid on to how rift parties are organized to where you can and cannot bot and who you can and cannot ks (including rules on whether you should keep an open party or not!) There’s a lot of antipathy between Oblivion and Emi (mostly originating from the Oblivion side to be fair) partly because Emi is basically the antithesis of rules. Personal feelings aside, Oblivion is probably one of the more welcoming guilds of the 5 OP ones (Starlight might be slightly better, but I’m less familiar with it) when it comes to teaching newer players game mechanics and helping them with instance runs. This is partly because Oblivion is very active, with a large number of PvE focused players.

On the other hand, Oblivion can be relatively ragey, with certain members constantly talking about banning other players and calling down the wrath of the GM on other guilds (this is especially prevalent after Emi wins all 3 EB bosses because Oblivion took over 2 months to realize how the reflect boss fountains worked). However, their Emi rivalry/inferiority complex aside, most Oblivion members are fairly nice and reasonable.

Eminence is generally considered to be the current most OP guild on Lionheart, though, to be honest, calling us the laziest guild on Lionheart is probably much more accurate. We are the only PvP focused guild on our server (PvE server d’oh) and our members are constantly “harassing” other guilds to guild war (and getting turned down, even by guilds that could theoretically match us simply due to sheer numbers like Oblivion). For an OP guild we’re quite small, of our 30-odd members online at any given time, at least 20 are in the training grounds whenever arena isn’t open. Our members generally have a max/min attitude towards everything and are almost all on the younger side of 30 (we probably have the most college students out of all the Lionheart guilds). Case in point: our lvl 3 dining hall still hasn’t been constructed so our guild can only hold lvl1 campfires.

A typical conversation between two Eminerds:

[3:33:54 PM] Reena: Ppl seem to hate us even tho we are lazy as fuck
[3:34:07 PM] Cecilia Tai: xDD
[3:34:10 PM] Cecilia Tai: theyhate our bots
[3:34:12 PM] Cecilia Tai: dem bots
[3:34:13 PM] Cecilia Tai: so arrogant
[3:34:17 PM] Cecilia Tai: !@!@
[3:34:21 PM] Reena: Lol
[3:34:27 PM] Reena: We afk half the time
[3:34:35 PM] Reena: And they hate us
[3:34:38 PM] Cecilia Tai: how dare they afk!@!@
[3:34:41 PM] Cecilia Tai: so arrogant!@!@
[3:34:43 PM] Cecilia Tai: so rude!@!@
[3:34:43 PM] Reena: Ikr
[3:35:04 PM] Reena: And we don’t let ppl in bot parties
[3:35:13 PM] Reena: Except guildmates
[3:35:17 PM] Cecilia Tai: and frenz
[3:35:25 PM] Cecilia Tai: their fault none of them wan to be our fren
[3:35:32 PM] Reena: And we take up all the realms
[3:35:50 PM] Cecilia Tai: lool
[3:35:52 PM] Cecilia Tai: that’s just jerz
[3:35:54 PM] Cecilia Tai: and his alt army
[3:36:00 PM] Reena: Because we don’t bother looking for each other in the diff realms
[3:36:01 PM] Reena: Yeah
[3:36:08 PM] Reena: I just look for jerz
[3:36:17 PM] Cecilia Tai: I mean we mostly congregate on trade with moja
[3:36:23 PM] Cecilia Tai: and then BF just stakes out a whole realm to himself
[3:36:23 PM] Reena: And join his parties lol
[3:36:24 PM] Cecilia Tai: LOL
[3:36:37 PM] Reena: Yeah lol
[3:37:00 PM] Reena: Idc… More space to join pts on
[3:38:10 PM] Cecilia Tai: mhm
[3:39:30 PM] Reena: And they won reflect and they were like “WHAT YOU GONNA DO NOW?”
[3:39:37 PM] Cecilia Tai: LOL
[3:39:40 PM] Cecilia Tai: we don’t even care
[3:39:43 PM] Reena: “BUTT HURT”
[3:39:46 PM] Cecilia Tai: LOL
[3:40:09 PM] Reena: I then i said “Gratz, first one in weeks”
[3:40:31 PM] Reena: And then we started laughing on mumble


An even more typical conversation:

[5/21/2013 2:45:18 AM] vorbis:on another note, i’m thinking freezing light works well for divine?
[5/21/2013 2:45:18 AM] vorbis: http://bit.ly/1187L3M
[5/21/2013 2:45:28 AM] vorbis: cause it’s actually 100% with 2/5
[5/21/2013 2:45:51 AM] Cecilia Tai: but must be slowed target hm
[5/21/2013 2:45:52 AM] Cecilia Tai: would work
[5/21/2013 2:45:59 AM] Cecilia Tai: frost concent>divine strike
[5/21/2013 2:46:07 AM] vorbis: yeah
[5/21/2013 2:46:17 AM] vorbis: but
[5/21/2013 2:46:18 AM] Cecilia Tai: but taking the two points out of vigorous blessing?
[5/21/2013 2:46:18 AM] vorbis: i wonder if it
[5/21/2013 2:46:22 AM] vorbis: works for slows form other classes
[5/21/2013 2:46:28 AM] Cecilia Tai: I think
[5/21/2013 2:46:30 AM] Cecilia Tai: it works for all
[5/21/2013 2:46:32 AM] vorbis: cause if so, it’d work so well with cie mage, water bar, etc
[5/21/2013 2:46:41 AM] vorbis: i can test, but haven’t
[5/21/2013 2:46:51 AM] vorbis: like i think so too
[5/21/2013 2:46:57 AM] Cecilia Tai: test on queza huehue
[5/21/2013 2:46:59 AM] vorbis: it’s just, i wouldn’t be certain until i test lol
[5/21/2013 2:47:03 AM] Cecilia Tai: obli said she had compasses
[5/21/2013 2:47:11 AM] vorbis: bom has always had the talent
[5/21/2013 2:47:15 AM] vorbis: was just too lazy to test 😛
[5/21/2013 2:47:45 AM] vorbis: but yeah, whether it appleis to all or not, i think that’s build i’d opt for as divine now
[5/21/2013 2:47:55 AM] Cecilia Tai: giving up the extra HE
[5/21/2013 2:47:59 AM] Cecilia Tai: from vigorous blessing?
[5/21/2013 2:48:45 AM] Cecilia Tai: btw
[5/21/2013 2:48:50 AM] Cecilia Tai: just for that tree specifically
[5/21/2013 2:48:52 AM] vorbis: oh no, i’ve runes for holypower and brilliance
[5/21/2013 2:48:54 AM] vorbis: so i can max those
[5/21/2013 2:48:58 AM] Cecilia Tai: I’d take out points from holy power
[5/21/2013 2:49:01 AM] Cecilia Tai: and put in healing spirit
[5/21/2013 2:49:02 AM] Cecilia Tai: oh
[5/21/2013 2:49:07 AM] Cecilia Tai: but then you won’t have purify?
[5/21/2013 2:49:17 AM] Cecilia Tai: not enough points in divine to get that skill
[5/21/2013 2:49:22 AM] Cecilia Tai: since rune points don’t count
[5/21/2013 2:49:26 AM] vorbis: …damn
[5/21/2013 2:49:27 AM] vorbis: forgot
[5/21/2013 2:49:38 AM] Cecilia Tai: orz
[5/21/2013 2:49:46 AM] Cecilia Tai: this is why
[5/21/2013 2:49:49 AM] Cecilia Tai: divine tree so inflexible
[5/21/2013 2:49:51 AM] Cecilia Tai: but
[5/21/2013 2:49:51 AM] Cecilia Tai: idk
[5/21/2013 2:49:57 AM] Cecilia Tai: giving up some of vig blessing
[5/21/2013 2:50:01 AM] Cecilia Tai: might not be a huge deal?
[5/21/2013 2:50:04 AM] vorbis: yeah
[5/21/2013 2:50:07 AM] vorbis: i’m thinking that to
[5/21/2013 2:50:13 AM] vorbis: especially if the trade off
[5/21/2013 2:50:16 AM] vorbis: is extra cc
[5/21/2013 2:50:20 AM] Cecilia Tai: mhm
[5/21/2013 2:50:29 AM] Cecilia Tai: also makes you more selfsufficient in FF etc
[5/21/2013 2:50:32 AM] Cecilia Tai: the main diff is
[5/21/2013 2:50:35 AM] Cecilia Tai: it makes you less efficient
[5/21/2013 2:50:37 AM] Cecilia Tai: in mass pvp
[5/21/2013 2:51:19 AM] vorbis: still, just 4%!
[5/21/2013 2:51:51 AM] Cecilia Tai: but the problem from conni/phil’s pov is
[5/21/2013 2:51:55 AM] Cecilia Tai: the 4% of vigorous blessing
[5/21/2013 2:51:59 AM] Cecilia Tai: makes vamp self heal from dark vamp
[5/21/2013 2:52:02 AM] Cecilia Tai: more effective too
[5/21/2013 2:52:09 AM] Cecilia Tai: so it’s 4% all around
[5/21/2013 2:52:29 AM] Cecilia Tai: idkkk
[5/21/2013 2:52:30 AM] Cecilia Tai: haha
[5/21/2013 2:52:32 AM] vorbis: the lifesteal?
[5/21/2013 2:52:34 AM] Cecilia Tai: yeah
[5/21/2013 2:52:37 AM] Cecilia Tai: according to conni
[5/21/2013 2:52:40 AM] Cecilia Tai: % HE
[5/21/2013 2:52:43 AM] Cecilia Tai: affects vamp lifesteal
[5/21/2013 2:53:26 AM] vorbis: i think i’d opt to skip anyway
[5/21/2013 2:53:44 AM] vorbis: freezinng light compliments seed of darkness
[5/21/2013 2:53:48 AM] vorbis: *too
[5/21/2013 2:53:58 AM] Cecilia Tai: true
[5/21/2013 2:54:04 AM] Cecilia Tai: but idk maybe it’s because I’m nub xD
[5/21/2013 2:54:12 AM] Cecilia Tai: but it’s pretty hard to find time to attack in rift scenarios
[5/21/2013 2:54:35 AM] Cecilia Tai: also hard for me to tell if someone’s slowed or not
[5/21/2013 2:54:38 AM] Cecilia Tai: too many people @@
[5/21/2013 2:54:45 AM] Cecilia Tai: I do think
[5/21/2013 2:54:49 AM] Cecilia Tai: super effective for 3s though
[5/21/2013 2:57:51 AM] vorbis: oh yah
[5/21/2013 2:57:53 AM] vorbis: i’m kind of
[5/21/2013 2:57:58 AM] vorbis: super 3v3 focued orz
[5/21/2013 2:58:05 AM] Cecilia Tai: xD
[5/21/2013 2:58:11 AM] Cecilia Tai: I mean
[5/21/2013 2:58:16 AM] Cecilia Tai: 3v3 is my favorite pvp too
[5/21/2013 2:58:34 AM] Cecilia Tai: but I feel like I have responsibility to emi too
[5/21/2013 2:58:37 AM] Cecilia Tai: @@
[5/21/2013 2:58:46 AM] Cecilia Tai: even if I’m not amazing at healing esp mass pvp
[5/21/2013 2:59:07 AM] Cecilia Tai: to at least build my priests to be the best support for the guild I can
[5/21/2013 2:59:08 AM] Cecilia Tai: otherwise
[5/21/2013 2:59:13 AM] Cecilia Tai: I’d totally be up for trying it on reina
[5/21/2013 2:59:14 AM] Cecilia Tai: ; A ;
[5/21/2013 2:59:19 AM] Cecilia Tai: more cc pl0x o/
[5/21/2013 2:59:22 AM] Cecilia Tai: less bullying pl0x \o
[5/21/2013 3:00:06 AM] vorbis: servile mentality :3
[5/21/2013 3:00:07 AM] vorbis: LOL
[5/21/2013 3:00:16 AM] Cecilia Tai: LOL
[5/21/2013 3:00:19 AM] Cecilia Tai: I have been well trained
[5/21/2013 3:00:23 AM] Cecilia Tai: glory to the empire
[5/21/2013 3:00:27 AM] Cecilia Tai: o/
[5/21/2013 3:16:33 AM] Cecilia Tai: http://www.aesica.net/fw/?race=1&profession=0&level=80&talent=5433044230003330002303023321|03|2
[5/21/2013 3:16:35 AM] Cecilia Tai: I’d do this
[5/21/2013 3:16:40 AM] Cecilia Tai: and just use 4 holy power runes
[5/21/2013 3:16:43 AM] Cecilia Tai: crit heal isn’t very reliable
[5/21/2013 3:16:50 AM] Cecilia Tai: but you’d be surprised how often it crits
[5/21/2013 3:16:52 AM] Cecilia Tai: xD
[5/21/2013 3:17:40 AM] Cecilia Tai: plus with this divine light has a 10%
[5/21/2013 3:17:43 AM] Cecilia Tai: crit heal chance base
[5/21/2013 3:17:57 AM] Cecilia Tai: with EB boots that’s 12%
[5/21/2013 3:18:12 AM] Cecilia Tai: and soul power talents … 16%?
[5/21/2013 3:18:15 AM] Cecilia Tai: if it’s 10/20
[5/21/2013 3:18:33 AM] vorbis: i think you linked what i sent
[5/21/2013 3:18:39 AM] Cecilia Tai: oh
[5/21/2013 3:18:44 AM] Cecilia Tai: derp I didn’t resave it
[5/21/2013 3:19:06 AM] vorbis: i’m slightly in favor of crit heals
[5/21/2013 3:19:41 AM] vorbis: bom/intrina didn’t bother last i checked though
[5/21/2013 3:19:54 AM] vorbis: so i just kind of went with how they see it
[5/21/2013 3:20:01 AM] vorbis: though
[5/21/2013 3:20:05 AM] vorbis: i’s probably better for elves
[5/21/2013 3:20:09 AM] Cecilia Tai: I suppose from my PoV
[5/21/2013 3:20:17 AM] Cecilia Tai: there’s no reason not to put points in that talent
[5/21/2013 3:20:20 AM] Cecilia Tai: since 4/3 holy power runes
[5/21/2013 3:20:22 AM] Cecilia Tai: is pretty easy
[5/21/2013 3:20:28 AM] Cecilia Tai: it’s what I ended up doing
[5/21/2013 3:20:55 AM] vorbis: yeah, especially if you ditch divine light lol
[5/21/2013 3:21:03 AM] Cecilia Tai: xD
[5/21/2013 3:21:11 AM] Cecilia Tai: divine light is nice
[5/21/2013 3:21:15 AM] Cecilia Tai: it doesn’t fit as well into elf rotation
[5/21/2013 3:21:21 AM] Cecilia Tai: but idk
[5/21/2013 3:21:30 AM] Cecilia Tai: different is good o/
[5/21/2013 3:21:36 AM] Cecilia Tai: btw with the build you made
[5/21/2013 3:21:43 AM] Cecilia Tai: maybe would be good to use devouring stream runes?
[5/21/2013 3:21:50 AM] Cecilia Tai: if we’re going to go cc
[5/21/2013 3:21:54 AM] Cecilia Tai: why not go all out x]
[5/21/2013 3:25:58 AM] vorbis: yeah
[5/21/2013 3:26:03 AM] vorbis: +forzen blade even
[5/21/2013 3:26:28 AM] Cecilia Tai: frozen blade doesn’t cc for divines though I think
[5/21/2013 3:26:31 AM] vorbis: but i suspect bom would kill me if i made a build like that for her to do taht much work OTL
[5/21/2013 3:26:32 AM] Cecilia Tai: *I mean ibs
[5/21/2013 3:26:38 AM] Cecilia Tai: xD
[5/21/2013 3:26:47 AM] vorbis: it lowers cd
[5/21/2013 3:26:50 AM] vorbis: so they can aoe spam
[5/21/2013 3:26:58 AM] Cecilia Tai: but why o.o
[5/21/2013 3:26:58 AM] Cecilia Tai: ibs
[5/21/2013 3:27:00 AM] Cecilia Tai: barely does any dmg
[5/21/2013 3:27:02 AM] Cecilia Tai: for divine priests
[5/21/2013 3:27:03 AM] vorbis: aoe
[5/21/2013 3:27:09 AM] vorbis: aoe ensnare
[5/21/2013 3:27:15 AM] Cecilia Tai: oh right
[5/21/2013 3:27:16 AM] Cecilia Tai: water skills
[5/21/2013 3:27:17 AM] Cecilia Tai: right
[5/21/2013 3:27:19 AM] Cecilia Tai: ha
[5/21/2013 3:27:23 AM] Cecilia Tai: I dumb

♡♡((◕ω◕))* vorb I sorry for revealing your super secret priest strategy (pssst everyone switch to this build fast~ it’s borbis approved)

Emi’s first ever lv3 chest *⁂((✪⥎✪))⁂* – dated 4/7/2013

emi lv3 chest!@!@@

Fundamentally, “the perfect guild” doesn’t really exist; it’s more about finding a guild that matches your needs and level of commitment in game as well as your personal attitude towards what a guild should and shouldn’t be. As you grow as a player, you will also slowly bring your own attitude and personality to the guild, gradually changing it (Emi recently welcomed quite a few less “lazy” members – hence the first lv3 chest in guild history). Having been actively involved in 3 guilds in FW: Radiance, Midnight, and Eminence, I can say with certainty that my “perfect guild” has changed dramatically from when I was first learning the game to when I reached end-game (I even did a complete class switch from vampire to priest). And even if one guild doesn’t have all the aspects I look for (i.e. I like chattier guilds and Emi is usually quiet): when in doubt use an alt~

botting sans potting


“Go miser go, for money sell your soul. Trade wares for wares and trudge from pole to pole, So others may say when you are dead and gone, see what a vast estate he left his son.” – John Dryden

As a game that targets a more casual audience, FW has a very well-designed botting system that allows players to farm exp, soul power, and soul coins without needing to actively play the game. Anyari from JN server posted an amazing video tutorial on how priests (with combined healing) can essentially bot forever without needing to spend any gold on potions! \(-ㅂ-)/

frostgale fjord


“It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.” – Voltaire

Frostgale Fjord is the 12v12 PvP battleground in FW – players queue as individual units rather than teams and are randomly assigned to one of two sides (red vs. blue). The ensuing battle is a bit like an amalgamation of paintball and capture the flag.

FYI, the video pretty much has to be watched in 720p+ for it to be even remotely watcheable  (╥﹏╥)

gate-breaking niveau 80


“Progress isn’t made by early risers. It’s made by lazy men trying to find easier ways to do something.” ― Robert A. Heinlein

After putting the inevitable off for a good month or so, I finally broke my level 80 soul gate last week (*´▽`*)

Reason: My soul power was getting scarily close to being maxed (max being 270000000 sp)

The quests: Defend Dusk Town (DDT) – summoning and killing a Deadly Blood Lord, Tomb of Kings (ToK), Gauntlet of Storms (GoS), cracked Shrine of Light (cSoL), God’s Trial (GT).

The Arassas (Mizz and Devilishly) were lovely and helped out quite a bit with the various quests and Eelon nicely did GT with me on his mage and priest  ♥(‘∀’●)

It was honestly quite an experience since I ended up dual clienting all of the quests besides GT (dual clienting in FW is when you run 2 games/characters at once) – I have a super lazy in-game 老公, so gate-breaking is what it is! Truthfully, I don’t actually approve of dual clienting higher level instances since it is always slower to move and react with two characters rather than one, so I think it’s a pretty rude habit, but necessity is the father of adaptation, so dual client I did (°◡°)

With level 80 soul power:

lv80 soul power

les relations virtual


“…we can not love or think except in fragments of time each of which goes along its own trajectory and immediately disappears.” – Italo Calvino

Virtual relationships are such a tenuous thing. Like anything else that occurs in an MMORPG, there’s a certain sense of detachment from reality to virtual “romance” – the keyboard warrior could also be a closet keyboard Casanova.

IRL (In Real Life), relationships suffer from mismatches in expectations – he sees the relationship as a serious affair with marriage in the future as a potential option, she just wants a no-strings companionship for the here and now; she thinks the flirtation is the spark of serious chemistry, his intentions are purely platonic good-fun sociability – these mismatches are magnified exponentially in a virtual setting. In an MMORPG, all of these traditional mismanagements of expectations are present, in addition to one new variable: “how real  is virtual reality?”

I am a chronic flirt. I don’t differentiate male or female, reality or virtual reality (ofc I don’t flirt in situationally inappropriate scenarios – I’m a chronic flirt, not an idiotic one). All my IRL friends are “darlings” and all of my in-game friends are “bbys.” It is simply how I associate and connect with other people – by being lavishly verbally affectionate. Consequently, I don’t see my endearments as “serious” even in the most rooted in reality scenarios. Virtually, I see them as absolutely inconsequential.

This cavalier attitude resulted in two rather interesting “case studies”.

(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ *names have been altered for privacy

Shortly after I joined my first guild, Radiance, an IRL married couple also joined. Because they shared one computer, only one half of the couple was ever online at any given time. Mocha, the waifu, was a bit shyer and quieter and also wasn’t online as often, so most of the guildies didn’t know her very well. On the other hand, myself and the guild lead, Hachi, did a lot of instance runs with the husband, Latte. Sure, sometimes we’d joke around and do “nude” instance runs – our characters would run LLH (Lost Lighthouse) in the very covered up gray default “fashion underwear.” (No seriously, the “panties” are actually tight-fitting shorts and the “bra” is more strapless sports bra than anything remotely resembling lingerie) But, we never thought anything more of our interactions than just good, light-hearted, virtual fun.

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hardly the scandal of the year

Then, one day Latte randomly pm-ed (private messaged) me something along the lines of “hey! I might not run as many instances with you guys, Mocha thinks I’m cheating with you two.”

My reaction: ┬─┬ ︵ /(.□. \)

There is something indescribably dizzying about being accused of an affair that never happened, especially if that affair was supposed to have happened virtually.

And thus was the awkward position that launched my short-lived career as a relationship counselor (´∀`)♡

I eventually started an in-game mail correspondence with Mocha (since we were rarely online at the same times) in which she explained why she was as upset about (what I saw as) seemingly innocuous behavior.

Mocha and Latte had met virtually to begin with – a background that definitely provided them with a very different context from the one which Hachi and I were working with. They were originally both players in another MMORPG called RO (Ragnarok Online) – Mocha and Latte both played male characters and Latte was originally unaware that Mocha was a girl. After another virtual relationship (in RO) ended badly, Latte relied on Mocha’s support and friendship to recover and rebound from the experience. In the process, he grew to love her carpe diem joie-de-vivre. Eventually, he confessed that he was falling in love with her, still believing that Mocha was a guy. Through various *ahem* methods, Mocha eventually proved her gender beyond a reasonable doubt and they married after Latte moved to her geographic location.

Mocha was living a very real example of when virtual companionship translated into real romance and partnership, providing very valid grounds for her wariness about Latte’s virtual relationships with other women.

(There were various other strains on their relationship at the time which I tried my amateurish best to help them work through – mostly by just trying to get them to communicate with each other and reminding them why they were with each other in the first place – I had indifferent success, but Mocha and I became very close friends until she and Latte both quit game)

The second case study is a lot more personal in origin.

My first in-game marriage (ever~ like ever ever ever in my history of all things gaming – even Skyrim! Okay for Skyrim it’s because I thought all the male AIs were fugly and was trying to make my own dreamboat with the SCK  (●°u°●)​ 」) turned out to be a Very Bad Idea though it seemed like all fun and games at the time.

I met BBT (●°●Bubble Tea●°● for the uninitiated) randomly while afk-ing in FH (Freedom Harbor) – he trolled me, which I found highly amusing, and we started joking around and flirting because, well, why not? When he asked me to marry him, I thought it would be a good opportunity to try a new aspect of social gaming and agreed because, again, why not? Being more fluent in the texts and subtexts of virtual relationships, I drew up a 3 clause prenuptial agreement, the 3 clauses being the 3 elements I believed were essential to a functional, drama-free virtual marriage (remind me to share stories of the drama-filled virtual marriages in the future ( • ∀•)」)

For the curious:

1. synchronize play time (because a marriage where you never do things together seems pretty pointless)

2. good, direct communication (it’s hard enough to tell what people are thinking without tone of voice [if not using voice chat] and body language)

3. virtuality-reality separation. no awkward “I love yous,” “my gfs.” in-game waifu, husbandu status only.

BBT’s post-nuptial behavior clearly indicated that he never took clause 2 and 3 seriously – particularly clause 3. He almost immediately began referring to me as his “gf” and ending raidcall conversations with “I love you!” – putting me in an awkward notsurehowtorespondtothat position (yes, awkward positions abound (ʘᗩʘ’) )

I saw the marriage titles as virtual titles with no significance – for me, BBT was just another in-game friend, only with a shiny new label. On the other hand, BBT’s virtuality was much more intertwined with his reality, causing a fundamental disconnect in our expectations for the in-game marriage. This disconnect, along with his inability to communicate in a non-passive-aggressive manner, eventually pushed me to file for divorce and to marry a guildie/friend simply so that I could break all ties with him.

Of course, more severe reality-virtuality disparities are possible. One of my in-game friends married an Egyptian player who then labored under the belief that they were married IRL as well. My friend was so creeped, she ended up quitting game for a few months.


Obviously, the greatest reality-virtuality disconnect when it comes to romance is “how does my significant other actually look?” Is emotional involvement, but complete ignorance of physical chemistry a healthy approach?